"My husband Frank is a nice enough man, but he just doesn't really measure up...if you know what I mean. He has a small penis. I know a wife is supposed to not say things like that about her husband, but it's true. And I'm sick of it.

We didn't have sex before we were married, we come from that era when it was considered proper to wait till the honeymoon before you saw your spouse naked. But now that I've reached my forties, I just crave sex all the time! And having a man who's penis just doesn't arouse me enough to have an orgasm is no fun at all.

Frank confessed to me that as a teenager growing up, the other kids had teased him and called him "dink". He said he loathed having to shower with the others because they would always end up pointing and laughing. Especially some of the black boys. Frank said some of their penises were absolutely enormous. One guy they even nick-named "BlackZilla" because of his huge penis. I think there's even a website now that features him having sex with white women.

Sometimes I log on after Frank has gone to sleep and look at the pictures of BlackZilla having sex with those white women. How wonderful it must be to be able to enjoy a penis that size! And some of these girls even let him put it in their anuses! Ouch! I don't think I'd like to do that, but I do confess to having a secret fantasy about sucking a black man's large penis. Feeling that huge pulsating cockhead in my mouth and having his hot sperm trickle down my chin and onto my breasts! I grew up in a southern town and people that knew me would die of shock if they knew my secret desires I can tell you...

But I did find one thing that turns Frank on, he actually likes me to scold and berate him about his small penis size! That's right! He likes me to call him a "sissy" and threaten to make him wear my bra and panties around the house if he doesn't get an erection when I tell him to do so. Once he even put on my stockings and garter belt, then had me take out a ruler and measure his penis, then make him lie back on the bed and masturbate him while I inserted a couple of fingers into his rectum, all the time saying things like "Mommy says you're a little sissy boy and must be punished" or "I wanted a husband but all I got was a little sissy bitch!" At first I wasn't really sure what I should do, but he is my husband and a wife must take care of his needs...no matter how strange!

Later I read at sites like MySissyHusband that many men have this fetish and actually enjoy having their wives punish and feminize them - some even by making them have oral sex with other men while dressed as women, or "sissy maids"! It's called "sissy training" and while it still doesn't seem "normal", at least I know Frank isn't the only one with this sexual fetish and that many women seem to accept and practice it with their husbands.

So, while he still has a small penis, at least we can enjoy some sort of sex life that satisfies us both...at least until I can figure out a way to get into bed with BlackZilla!

Kellie.